Abandon Text!

W. H. Auden once said: "Poems are not finished; they are abandoned." I have been abandoning writing projects for many years, since only the pressure of deadline and high expectations ever got me to finish, or even start, anything of merit. This blog is an attempt to create a more consistent, self-directed writing habit. Hopefully a direction and voice will emerge.

Tuesday, June 27, 2006

Tired but Happy

I had a good meeting with some SKS folks tonight. There is nothing earth-shattering going on, either philosophically or organizationally . . . just the usual suspects. Planning for the fall semester . . . meetings, lectures, social events, contacts. There is more to do and less certainty than there has been in the past; far from our best year, but not our worst, either.

And yet I feel mildly euphoric. I should be depressed by how much there is to do, and I'm not. I feel excited . . . the release of knowing that I'm doing what I ought to be doing. I've been in a rut for so long that jumping out of the track for even a single evening feels mind-altering.

Sometimes I think that, if I could just figure out where this feeling comes from, what really causes it and what I'm responding to, I would know my life's purpose. Because that's the way I want to feel all the time.


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